Synthetic Shell

English Lyrics

Wrestling with voices inside, 

questions I already know the answers to

But I can’t bring myself to accept it, 

even though I’m aware, it’s plain to see    

I know it. I see it in your gaze and in the things you do 

How laughable, 

how I just turn my back and deny it

Looking away, even though I know it deep down

Keeping this plastic smile on, 

just to keep everything going

Let me just turn my back, I hope it might be true

That there’s a place in there where it’s the way I want it to be 

Letting days and nights pass with hope, 

burying everything beneath the veneer

Choosing sweet smiles and brightness, keeping it all “normal”

Tell yourself, it can still carry on, everything’s still normal

Whatever it is, bury it beneath this shell of normal bliss 

But every single thing is fake! Fake through and through! 

I’m fake! The smile is fake! Everything is fake! 

Even the self I am is fake! I myself am fake! 

Wrestling with lies that ring so hollow

Writhing with a heart arguing against everything

Knowing the answer, yet acting like everything is normal 

Seeing nothing, knowing nothing, acting like everything is normal  

You really think, everything will carry on without end 

Hoping that everything will never change 

Wrestling with voices inside, 

questions I already know the answers to

But I can’t bring myself to accept it, 

even though I’m aware, it’s plain to see    

I know it. I see it in your gaze and in the things you do 

How laughable, 

how I just turn my back and deny it

Looking away, even though I know it deep down

Keeping this plastic smile on, just to keep everything going

Let me just turn my back, I hope it might be true

That there’s a place in there where it’s the way I want it to be 

Letting days and nights pass with hope, 

burying everything beneath the veneer

Is there happiness? 

“No” 

agony still crawls within

The truth keeps piercing through the shell

Using the heart to press down every sharp thorn that pierces 

Pretending like everything still carries on as normal 

Using the heart to take every sharp thorn that pierces through  

Keep deceiving myself within the spreading wounds  

The “normal” carries on, the veneer remains divine 

Even though the thorns never lessen, they only keep stabbing 

Pretending to be normal, 

but what is the heart beneath that shell like?

Original Thai Lyrics

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